random ramblings, part 2

I think a lot of the cause for my griping is I don't have any clearly defined life goals. I've always had them before. Graduate High School. Get Into College. Graduate College. Get a Job. Etc. All that normal shit.

Now, I'm more or less stable, and feel like I don't have anywhere to go. What's my next big step? If I were playing my the "normal American life rule book" I'd be thinking about marriage, and kids and all the trappings that go along with that. And I want no part of any of that. Marriage seems like such an outdated concept to me, and involves the government in ways it has no business in. The very concept of getting taxed differently because of who you're sleeping with is preposterous. And I'm too much of a selfish bastard to give serious thought to child raising. I mean, I'll deal with it if it comes up, and things will most likely be ok. But it's not something I'd ever say "Yeah, I think it's about time I brought a sprog into this world".

I suppose I could look into buying a house. "Real" people tend to do that. But I've got to get out of debt first, and I'm not really looking forward to that. Besides, I want goals that I'll like working towards, dammit. None of this self-sacrifice shit. Also, that falls under "things I should do", not "things I want to do".

That, and since there's still a non-zero chance I'll be moving to sunny California at some point (what? me, give up on something just because it probably won't work? not bloody likely) , I don't want to go through the hassle of buying a house just to have to sell it in a few months (or even a couple years).


Now it's over I'm dead and I haven't done anything that I want
Or, I'm still alive and there's nothing I want to do

Dead -- TMBG